Full Name: Fintan Curran
Nickname(s): 420 (usually called this), Finn (by Chuckles)
Age: 29
Gender: Male
Species: Cat
Birthday: 20 April (Aries/Taurus cusp)
Sexual Orientation: Homosexual
Marital Status: asdfghjkl;'
some stuff I've written about this nerd. Fair warning, most of them have brief mentions/depictions of drug use; there's nothing too detailed, but if that sort of stuff bothers you, you may want to skip these.
Backstory
Nicknames
Unnamed 420/Jun ficlet #1
Unnamed 420/Jun ficlet #2
Like A Kite Without A String (he isn't actually in this one, but he's mentioned in it)
And If You Wake Up Wondering (future 420/Chuckles fluff)
...Yet You're In My Thoughts (old, unfinished 420/Chuckles roleplay)
Remember (maudlin future 420/Chuckles... thing)
I Can Tell We're Gonna Be Best Friends (he isn't in this one either, but again, mentioned, so)
Hold my hand
3 AM
Warmth
Sometimes I see your face lookin' at me
All your love and grace, smilin' at me
All the things we had, and never understood
At times it cuts me up, thinkin' of you
All the hope I've got, wasted on you
All the talks we had, never did no good
Oh, baby
I don't need you to save me
I just want you to help me
Cause you're keepin' me up all night
I'm so tired of waitin'
Waitin' here for nothing
I should be up all night with you
Pour another glass
While I watch the bottle disappear
While I watch the morning light appear
Thinkin' about you
Oh, baby
I don't need you to save me
I just want you to help me
Cause you're keepin' me up all night
I'm so tired of waitin'
Waitin' here for nothing
I should be up all night
Oh, baby
I don't need you to save me
I just want you to help me
Cause you're keepin' me up all night
I'm so tired of waitin'
Waitin' here for nothing
I should be up all night...
I met this girl last night and she said "why won't you marry me?"
(He met this girl last night and she said "why won't you marry me?")
But I'm too young for that
Too dumb for that
Too broke for that
Too tired for that
Too proud for that
And I'm too gone for that
Would you like to come back to my flat?
Oh, baby
I don't need you to save me
I just want you to help me
Cause you're keepin' me up all night
I'm so tired of waitin'
Waitin' here for nothing
I should be up all night
(Oh, baby)
Oh, baby
(Don't need you to save me)
I don't need you to save me
(Just want you to help me)
I just want you to help me
(Cause you're keepin' me up all night)
Why don't you do that for me?!
I'm so tired of waitin'
Waitin' here for nothing
I should be up all night with...
Come on, just say you'll stay
(Written desc will come eventually, notes for now.)
- Somewhat scatterbrained, socially awkward, loner. Easily distracted. Defeatist/self-sabotaging (though he doesn't mean to be), blames himself for everything. Kind of pessimistic and jaded. Lonely. Dwells on things from years ago, but he doesn't really have anything else to do. Mopey.
- He blames himself for everything. Everything that's gone wrong in his life, everything that he perceives as a failure, it's all his fault. He regrets everything.
- His real name's "Fintan", but he hates it. He was given the nickname "420" as a teenager, based off his birthday (20th April i.e. 4/20) and, ah, habits (at the time). He's not that fond of his nickname, either, but it stuck and it's at the point where he's just used to it and he feels really weird being called by his real name (also, again, he hates his real name *anyway*... to the point where he prefers an embarrassing/outdated nickname to it, yes. Lesser of two evils, and all that). No, it wouldn't just occur to him to come up with a different nickname for himself. Chuckles initially calls him "Mr. Curran", then eventually starts calling him "Finn" instead.
- Terrible at standing up for himself (doesn't really try to, either), but he'll do whatever he can to stick up for people he loves.
- Lives in Telluria, a town nearby Felicitas City.
- Almost always shirtless; if he has to wear a shirt, it's usually loose and oversized. Hates having anything around his neck (he's a cat that hates collars!). Never wears shoes. (okay, granted, *most* of my chars go shoeless, but, you know. :p)
- His hands are kind of shaky; they're not constantly shaking, or anything, it's just a subtle thing mostly, they've always been like that. This doesn't bother him at all and half the time he forgets about it, it doesn't really affect him in any way (except that he can't hold things very straight, lol).
- Deeply regrets ever getting involved with drugs (and Jun, his ex-boyfriend), determined to never go down that road again.
- Younger sisters are Kaboom and Giggles.
- 420's parents were deadbeats, basically. They were never around much anyway, and when he was in high school, they disappeared, leaving him to look after his sisters by himself. He hasn't seen them since, and he hasn't heard from them in years (they used to send money every month or so, but that fizzled out years ago). He has no idea where they are, why they left (all they ever told him was "we'll be gone for a while, look after your sisters, here's some money for food"), or if they're even still alive. He can only very vaguely remember them, even. (He can remember them much more than his sisters can, but frequently absent parents + passing of time + the fact that 420's memory tends to be spotty anyway = vague memories) 420 hates his parents. He hates them for never paying attention to his sisters, for leaving him in charge of them. It's a vicious circle - he blames himself for not doing more for his sisters, then he blames his parents for never being around/leaving him in charge instead of "someone more capable", then he thinks "no, it's my fault, I should've tried harder" and yeah. He doesn't really care if he never sees them again.
- So! 420 and his sisters. So the thing is, he'd never paid much attention to them to begin with. 420's a loner by nature, and he's completely terrible with kids/babies. He had no idea how to interact with the girls when they were first born, and that just sort of... continued... the girls argued with each other, while 420 just kept to himself. Then his parents left. 420 had no idea how to look after kids (hell, at this point he wasn't doing a great job of looking after himself), and also he was very heavily wrapped up in Jun and drugs at this point. He loved his sisters very deeply, and still does, but he had no idea what he was doing. He spent most of the time getting stoned, essentially leaving his sisters to their own devices. And then they graduated high school and left home, and he finally came to his senses and realized that he'd fucked up most of his life. His sisters hated each other, and that was surely his fault too, since he'd never intervened. He'd never done much of anything with them. 420 misses his sisters terribly, but he has no idea how to get in touch with them or anything (he knows Giggles lives in Felicitas, but that's it), and to be honest, he's kind of scared; he thinks they'd probably just tell him to piss off and leave them alone. (Again, the self-sabotaging thing.)
- 420's only ever been in one relationship, and it ended pretty badly. He met Jun when he was around 15. 420 had never had any friends before this. He'd spent his life up to that point waiting for something to happen, something to give his life meaning. He fell head over heels in love with Jun pretty much as soon as he first saw him. Jun was pretty much the opposite of 420; charming, charismatic, ambitious... He was also a stoner. He introduced 420 to marijuana and he got hooked pretty quickly. Something to do! Hooray! 420 and Jun fell into a relationship the same day they met; 420 confessed quickly, and Jun's got a pretty laissez-faire view on life - he figured, this guy's pretty hot, he seems alright, let's go for it. They were together for several years. Initially, 420 was blind to all of Jun's many flaws, because he had a huge crush on him (the initial attraction was more of a physical thing, yeah); by the end of it, he was pretty much willingly ignoring those flaws, because he loved him (also he was high a lot of the time and didn't notice that kind of stuff as much). Jun left him one day, without warning (he broke up with 420 over the phone), and 420's been afraid of falling in love again ever since. He doesn't want to get his heart broken again. Not that he thinks anyone would ever want him, anyway.
- He first meets Chuckles completely by accident... he visits Felicitas City to try and find his sisters, and apparently fortune was smiling on him that day (that's why they call it Felicitas City! I guess.), because he almost immediately walked past Chuckles at the precise time that he was on the phone to Giggles. 420 thought he vaguely recognized the other cat (they'd seen each other in the past, but they'd never really talked or anything; if they did, 420 wasn't sober/lucid enough to remember it) so he ran after him, and idk what happens past that because it still needs to be written (Chuckles was originally a friend's character and the roleplay didn't get very far, so.. give me a bit to figure this all out) BUT eventually they start dating. 420 completely adores Chuckles. He thinks he's the best thing that ever happened to him. He doesn't think he really deserves someone like Chuckles - he's smart, wonderful, cute, actually has a job, knows what he's doing in life... 420 thinks "I don't know how I found someone as wonderful as you, because I'm a bad person and I don't deserve you, but I love you so much and you make me want to be someone that DOES deserve you". They're kind of awkward together, and it takes them a while to get together due to their mutual issues (Chuckles is closeted, 420's issues are... well-documented), but they're happy and they love each other.
- He also knows Sanja, but that roleplay never really got anywhere, so idk what else to say about that. Need to think about it more.
- oh and just for the record - he is very vaguely aware that Giggles has friends named Allie and Cami, but he has no idea which one's which and he's never had any significant interaction with either of them. (He walked in on Allie and Giggles making out once, and Cami left him a note when Giggles and Kaboom moved to Felicitas. That's it.)
♪♪♪:
"Up All Night" - Take That
"No Way Out (Soundtrack Version)" - Phil Collins
"If It Wasn't For The Nights" - ABBA
420/Chuckles:
"Together Forever" - Rick Astley
"Take Me To Your Heart" - Rick Astley
"I Know You're Out There Somewhere" - The Moody Blues
420/Jun:
"I Thought You Were My Boyfriend" - The Magnetic Fields
"Love Drunk" - Boys Like Girls
"Did You Ever Really Love Me?" - Nicki French
"Suburbia" - Pet Shop Boys
My art:
(Newest to oldest, more or less)
(teenage Jun and 420)
(with Chuckles)
(younger 420, with Jun)
old stuff that I want to keep track of:
REALLY old, but I like his expression here
re: 420's nickname(s)
Avoidance
An excuse to draw characters sleeping on each other
Roleplay doodle
420's a total lightweight, btw
Dating with Chuckles and 420
Texts
Clingy 1 and 2
420/Chuckles fluff (not old, just huge)
420 giving advice (also not old)
Over and Over - The James Boys (a song comic! also not old)
Suburbia - Pet Shop Boys (not old, just big-ish)
Art by others:
(Mouse over thumbnails for artist info!)
Everywhere I turn, I hurt someone
But there's nothing I can say to change the things I've done
Of all the things I hid from you, I cannot hide the shame
And I pray someone, something will come to take away the pain
There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
I can't face another day
Tell me where did I go wrong?
Everyone I love, they're all gone
I'd do everything so differently
But I can't turn back the time
There's no shelter from the storm inside of me, oh
There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
Oh, and I can't face another day
I can't believe the words I hear
It's like an answer to a prayer
When I look around, I see (oh, I can see)
This place, this time
This friend of mine, oh
I know it's hard, but you found somehow
To look into your heart and to forgive me now
You've given me the strength to see just where my journey ends
You've given me the strength to carry on, oh
I see the path from this dark place
I see my future
And your forgiveness has set me free
Oh, and I can see another way
I can face another day, yeah
(I see the path)
I can see the path
(I see the future)
I see the path from this dark place
I see my future
(I see the path)
I can see the path
(I see the future)
I see the path from this dark place